Wednesday, November 28, 2007
DIE ! DIE ! DIE !
Tml gonna hav tons of work to do !!
Cuz didn finish my work today !!
Left office at 7 plus cuz gt department dinner
Department dinner was held at Marriot Hotel
And thru this dinner
I finally noe ppl frm my department but other branch de le !
Came to realise tt not all are frm china de !!
hahas
onli my branch all frm china
de rest gt singaporeans oso de
but im stil de youngest ! :)
All of them col mi "xiao-mei"
hahas ! reali sounds super small dere !!
Aniwae, dinner was kinda sianz ..
But yah, stil okie la :)
De food dere was nice and "high class"
but stil, I feel tt Paris food nicer :)
But one thing ish tt their svs was super gud !
And
Everyone was surprise upon seein de bills !
Guess why ?
Too cheap !! heex
13 ppl onli 600plus (after 15%discount)
meanin each person onli abt $50 plus!
hahas!
Aniwae, everyone seems to b lookin very 4ward to company dinner and dance on de 19 dec
which i totalli not lookin 4ward to de
(mayb cuz i dun like to mingle wif china ppl ? )
LOLZ !
Reali feel tt bank earn big money !!
Company each yr hav DND at hotel ballroom
den every staff wil b given red packet of few hundreds
den oso gt lucky draw
Lucky draw prizes range frm thousands of dollars de
not onli tt
each department was also given money 4 times per yr fer department dinner
and oso we always hav tea breaks de
like muffins/cakes/soya beans n stuff
and dere's a uncle always cumin to send us biscuit n drinks to stock up de
its like dere's no chance fer mi to jianfei la !!
onli wil get fatter !! haha : )
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Brought newspaper ytd n today oso
read de paper abt de dragon boat tragedy
Am not so emo le ! :)
Aniwae, feel tt their death brought mi to realisation,
of how we should treasure our life n de ppl ard us !
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Posted by [ ^^-S.M.I.L.E-^^ ] at 11:49 PM
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
Juz read de chinese papers
And realise tt de 2o yr old Mr. Chee Wei Cheng's dad had juz pass away not long ago
hmm.
His mum ish reali very very sad
1st was de dad, n now de son.
haiz
My Deepest Condolences
Posted by [ ^^-S.M.I.L.E-^^ ] at 2:07 AM
Monday, November 26, 2007
HAIZ
An emo post of mine
Hmm.. Went out wif Meiyu after work todae..
Brought a top
Den on de way home, saw ppl readin de papers abt de dragon boat incident
heard of de incident ytd thru de news telecast
decided to buy de papers ( straits times ) while on de way home
while readin de 6 pages papers abt de incident
MANY thots came thru my mind
and i became damn emo
Life ish so fragile
so unpredictable
we never noe wad wil happen to us de next moment
shall learn to treasure de ppl ard us
shall learn to live life to de fullest
haiz !
read all de 6 pages of de articles
my hrt reali goes out fer them
REALI
imagaine one hu ish always vey cheerful
n in his frenster he stated,
" makin ppl laugh ish wad i do best"
"committed in wadeva i do"
"nv sae die attitude"
another one hu ish Mr. World Sinagapore 2006
a musician
hu said,
" I am a leader and I hope to set a positive example for young ppl to have de courage to achieve their dreams"
another hu ish a engineer
and decided to be a PE teacher
due to his love of sports
n is his student's fav teacher
and hav pick up de nickname of
" Mr. Muscles" at Maris Stella High
another hu hav a gf of at least 2 yrs
tt juz celebrate his 27th b'dae early tiz mth
and his parents didn noe abt his trip to cambodia
his dad said,
" he nv told mi he was going
-without a word, he jus left"
"at least if i had spoken to him before he left,
i would hav a chance to tell him he muz b careful"
another hu ish onli a 20 yr old corporal
servin his NS
HAIZ
all de 5 of them are promisin sportsman in national team
but wadeva it is
things have taken place
juz hope tt de 5 of them wil rest in peace
n my deepest condolences to de family n frens
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after readin all these
suddenli hav alot of reflections
esp when im readin a book " tues wif morries"
life ish reali unpredictable
i rmb in de book
dere's a conversation between morrie and mitch
and it goes sumtin like tt
morrie: "everyone noes they are goin to die, but nobody believes it. If we did,
we would do things differently"
mitch:"so we kid ourselves abt death"
morrie:"Yes. But there's a better approach. To noe u are goin to die, and to be PREPARED for it at any time. Tt's better. Tt way u can actualli b more involved in ur life while u are living"
another passage/chapter
morrie said,"we're so wrapped up wif egotistical things, career, family, havin enuff $$, meeting de mortage, gettin a new car-we're involved in trillions of little acts juz to kip goin. So we don get in2 de habit of standin back n lookin at our lives and sayin, Is this all? Ish this all I want? Is something missing?"
hmm..
after readin de article of de dragonboat tragedy
i hav flashes of phrase in my mind frm de book
2 of it are wad i hav written
hmm..
kinda reflect upon my life
am currentli workin most of my time
sumtimes after work jiu go home
sumtimes after work jiu hang out wif frens
fer shoppin or dinner
mit my family onli once a week
sat/sun mostli spent out wif frens
if not slackin at home
hmm..
sumhow i feel tt im leadin a routine life
even thru dere are mani times tt i am enjoyin
but
somehow i stil feel tt its kinda empty inside
is it due to family ? lack of family warmth?
is it due to studies ? sumthin tt i want, yet giv up
is it due to frens ?
is it due to work ?
or is it bcuz i hav yet to find out wad i reali want in life
or is it bcuz i hav not place God in my life ?.
hmm..
kinda lost and emo now..
haiz !
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wadeva it ish
i juz wanna treasure wadeva i hav now
b more expressive
and to find de MI and de purposeso tt if i were to leave i wil hav no regrets
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Posted by [ ^^-S.M.I.L.E-^^ ] at 11:48 PM
Sunday, November 25, 2007
I HAD GOT SO MUCH TO BLOG !!!
BUT GOT NO TIME !!
FINALLY IM HERE TO BLOG ALL UP !! :D
Heys! U guys noe wad ?.
IM FINALLY 18 !!!
on 13 NOV :)
THANKS ALL !!
fer de b'dae wishes, celebrations, presents, cakes .. so on n so forth !
I realli appreciate it ! :)
THANKS !!
ON 9th NOV
Went out with JIAXIN fer dinner !
It was his treat fer my b'dae!!
My best cousin !!
He seems to b de onli cousin tt im close wif
Haha!!
N guess wad we had ?!!
We had PARIS buffet at marina square!!
NICE NICE !!
SUPER NICE !!
but kinda ex..
cuz after svs charge and all, its abt $80++ fer both of us !
Followings are de pics ! :)
proof of my existance in PARIS !! -.-"" lolz
Followings are some of de food :D




And this is MI with de ice cream !
and JIAXIN !! my cousin tt treated mi !! :D
THANKS alot Jia Xin !! :D
I did enjoy my dinner :)
ON 10th NOV
Had an earli b'dae celebration wif my BESTIE !! :D
1st we went to WILD WILD WET, den to MS den to BUGIS !!
Followings are de pics !! :D
WILD WILD WET attendance:
ZhenLing, ShuiJin, Meiyu, Kah Leong n Tai Nian ! :D
And this is de 1st time we (de gals) go WWT
It was super fun !! :D
And there's a price to pay fer it de !
N its SUNBURNT !! :X
PAIN!!
But hu cares ! so long as we had fun :)
We ( Shui Jin, ZhenLing, mi n Meiyu) wearin de same tee :D
in de kids pool :)
Under de BIG YALKULT!! ( we are those sittin dwn) :D
Oh!!And here come de MOST FUN, EXCITING game!!De ONLY game tt we SCREAM like siao !! Was so afraid at 1st ! Wanted to backout when we reach de topBut stil we playIt's reali a game tt u cnt miss when u go to WWT !Super EXCITING !!SCARY yet FUN !! :DPlay 3-4 times in de end !! hahas :)Mi n Kah Leong ..

And tt's us !!Meiyu, ZhenLing, ShuiJin and Mi ! after Bathin :)
NEXT !!
We went to ..
at MARINA SQURE !! Attandance : ZhenLing, Meiyu, ShuiJin, Mi, KahLeong, Eric, TaiNian, Fredrick :)
YUKI YAKI !!
Its kind of steamboat buffet !
Very NICE !!
Much nicer compare to places like marina south steamboat or even seoul garden !
Cuz ..
less oily
food fresher
more space to cook !!
cuz they hav 2 "stove"/"pots" (wadeva u col tt)
one for soup
and one for bbq
Followings are de pics !! :D
As usual, WE love PRAWNS :D
uncooked prawns
cooked prawns
and thats how much PRAWNS we eat !! :)Anwiae, we 4 always have competition of peeling and eating prawns when we eat bbq
haha!!
Winner ish always HU MEIYU !!
She peel de skin damn fast de lorx !
N she eat oso super duper fast !!
:D
andwhats so great abt Yuki Yaki is that we get to cook our very own
ICE CREAM !!
1st !! we chose de favor we want :)
2ndpour it into de "stove"/"pot"
3rd
COOK it til it bcm ICE CREAM :)
4th ENJOY !! :)

and this was done by de waiter dere !super nice right ?
when it bcm ICE CREAM
we oso bu she de eat ! :D
too cute :D
and this is a grp photo b4 we left :)
Ended up we spent almost 3 hrs dere !! haha ! :)
But de person didn charge us more ! :)
Totally bills fer all of us was abt $200 :D
Its kinda worth de price !!
Ice cream makin was de most interestin n fun de !! :)
N NICE :)
photo on de way home :)
NEXT !!
13th NOV !!
My b'dae!!
Went to work as usual ..
( no choice, cnt take leave)
after tt, went fer dinner with my family
my mum, my sister, n my mum's bf (uncle jeffery)
Had our Dinner at SEAFOOD STATION! :)
took some pics while waitin fer seats



NICE MENU
~CHEERS~
after waiting fer more den 15 mins ..
de food finally arrive ! :D
my FAV toufu !!
Sambal KangKong( de onli vege that i eat)
tom yam seafood soup
fish..
black pepper crab
butter prawns
Does de food look nice ?.
Its very NICE !!
I eat freakin lot !! :D
This SEAFOOD STATION gt inside seats (wif aircon)
and outside seats (facin de sea)
Nice scenery !
Nice FOOD !!
So its reali worth de $$
Heex
Highly recommended by mi !!
and de ppl below!! :)
(dere's ALOT stars advertising this shop)
NEXT !!
Headed to ShuiJin hse dwnstairs!!
Cut CAKE session!!
My mum brought mi ICE CREAM CAKE frm SWENSENS ! :)
Nice too !! * YUMMY*





and that marks de end of my b'dae ! :)Hmm
This yr b'dae was a VERY SPECIAL one !
Because pass years b'dae was out wif frens celebrating
this seems to b de FIRST yr among my teens life with my family
Did enjoy myself
Find it pretty meaningful :)
hmm..
de last pic was
Uncle Jeffery, mum, mi, n sister
one of my b'dae wish is tt:
I hope Uncle Jeff wil treat my mum well
n oso treat my sis n mi well :)
hope happiness fer my mum :D
NEXT!!
16th NOV
Belated b'dae celebration :)
ZOUK NIGHT OUT !!
Alot of weird things happen on tt day !!
1st:
Taxi driver didn on cab fare
den ended up charging us more den wad it suppose to be
2nd:
Drink stall uncle doesn allow us to make payment indiviually
so we make payment as a grp
yet he kip on explainin himself NON-STOP to us
when we dun reali bother abt it
3rd:
Fish soup aunt bring de food to us
She frm bhind saein " gal, careful"
next moment
she pour de soup on mi !!!
its freakin HOT la !! :(
LOTS of weird things happen !!
But stil we ENJOY ourselves so much !!
LOVE de feelin of bein able to go in usin my OWN ic !! :)
hahas
But stil, prefer phuture so much more den zouk :D
SHUI JIN and MI
( b'dae gals)
on de way to zouk
kah leong, mi n meiyu
at phuture dance floor


headed to cineleisure after ttactualli want to go k-box de
BUT
we reach dere at 5, n it close at 6
so onli 1 hr of singing
kinda bohua
so we went xinwang hk cafe to had breakfast instead
chatted alot
n we play games dere too!
Had lots of fun :)
after which ..
Headed HOME !!
THAT MARKS DE END OF B'DAE CELEBRATIONS !! :)
ONCE again!
THANKS !!
Be it be spendin/celebrating wif mi, presents or even b'dae wishes !
I appreciate it alot!!
oh ya !
I apologise to a few frens here !
SORRY !
wasn able to make it to celebrate my b'dae togeta wif u all
BUT
its de thots tt counts !!
I appreciate it !
THANKS
anwiae,
Did enjoy my 18th b'dae!!
N oso, i hope my BESTIE SHUIJIN enjoy hers too ! :D
AND MORE CLUBBING SESSIONS YAHX?! :)
Posted by [ ^^-S.M.I.L.E-^^ ] at 3:17 AM
Sunday, November 4, 2007
HAD SO MUCH FUN AND LAUGHTER TODAE
HAD SO MUCH FUN AND LAUGHTER !!
Went blading at ECP wif Meiyu & ShuiJin Ytd
HAD SO MUCH LAUGHTER !!!
LOL
De 3 of us went bladin, but onli Meiyu noe how to blade
Shui Jin & Mi dunoe how to blade de
Den ended up ShuiJin fall FIVE times on her butt !!
and MI fall TWO times on my knees !!
While Meiyu ZERO times !! : X
Realise one thing..
Kids cry when they fall
Teenage LAUGH when they fall !!
Lolz !!
Each fallin time make us laugh like siao ! REALI !!
De MOST FUNNIE FALL ish by Shui Jin
HAHA!!
We were blading to Mac fer a drink
and Shui Jin did a very funnie act and ended up fallin dwn !
Very hard fer mi to describe de action
But if u are dere, I guess u wil b like Meiyu n Mi
Laughin non-stop !!!!
HAHA !!
And went we proceed frm de mac to de shop to return our blade
dere's actualli a slope dwnwards
I stil dunoe how to stop my blade
so Meiyu hold mi dwn de slope
While im waitin at de end of de slope fer meiyu to go back n hold Sj dwn
my blade slide dwn !!
I ended up holdin on to 2 gals ( which i dunoe de )
Den i was like saein to them
" erm, sorry, can lend mi hold awhile, cuz i cnt control my blade"
LOLZ!!
So damn Paiseh !!! :X
But aniwae, Thanks gals ! :D
Apart frm these 2 incident
We are oso like HUMAN ROAD BLOCK
LOLZ :X
De 3 of us are holdin hands when we blade at 1st
Imagine de path
with 3 gals holdin hands side by side
HAHAS !!
Actualli alot of things happen oso
But kinda hard to write out in de blog
so yah !!
Summarise : HAD SO MUCH FUN BLADING !! :D
Aniwae, we hav agree on gg to blade/cycle every sat at ECP..
So do join us if u guys are interested !! :)
After bladin we went parkway parade to shop
reaise tt parkway parade ish quite a nice place to shop :D
Ended up got myself a BLUE STRIPE TOP !!
and
a lipgloss, 2 eyeshadow, curler, eyelashes from Face shop !
And now, Meiyu & I are member of Face Shop..
So ppl, if u gals wanna go Face Shop to buy things
can lend de member card frm us :)
After which we went fer dinner at de foodcourt
SOMETHING VERY VERY PAISEH HAPPEN TO MI !!
tinkin of tt make mi blush now !!!
While we were eating, I was tellin Meiyu & Shui JIn
that my bank change de Cisco guy on fridae
And i kept emphasising that de guy ish freakin handsome
Den was like, " very very shuai de, tall tall, thin thin, wear de metal frame specs, very very handsome"
Den i realise that bside mi got someone lookin at mi
so i turn to my right
n guess hu i saw ?!!!!
I saw my bank manager !!!!!
OH GOSH !!!
It's freakin Paiseh la !!
de world ish like to small la
didn noe tt de one sittin bside mi ish my manager
den Shuijin sae my face blush
OMG !!
I cnt imagaine how am i going to work tml !!
hope that my manager wil kip to herself !!
- the MOST PS thing tt happen to mi - :X
hmm
this teach mi a lesson !!
Look ard b4 u sae someting !!
haha
But luckily i didn sae anitin bad abt her ! :)
Reach home ytd at 9plus ..
Aniwae, realise that recentli got alot of ppl facin wif relationship probs !!
Got a couple of frens callin n mittin mi up to pour their sorrows
but no matter wad
fer hu eva it is
STAY STRONG
dere bounds to b ups n dwns in r/s de !! :)
wil continue to blog soon ! : D
Posted by [ ^^-S.M.I.L.E-^^ ] at 4:08 PM
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
Updating My Life
WOW !!
Time to blog ! : D
Realise tt wheneva I blog, i always starts wif de same old sentence
" It seems to b ages tt i blog le"
Lolz ! Realli blog once in a blue moon !
Haha.
But who cares !
Im stil a dedicated blogger !
Alot of things had happen since I last blog
Alot of unhappiness/happiness fill my heart
But i decide to share it wif frens
rather den pourin out here
But wadeva it is
Im now back to de Jessandra
de cheerful little gal tt u guys know : D
Some news to update !
(which i blieve alot of ppl already know)
Im now no longer a student of TP
Had quit skul
Alot of ppl pursuaded mi to continue
tellin mi lots of reasons why shld i get a diploma cert
which i stongly agree
but wadeva it is
after weighin de pros n cons
i decided to quit
Its true tt in de soceity now
certs are very important
certs = salary
but de certs tt im pursuin now (BZE)
is not sumtin tt im interested in
hence, decided to giv up
BUT
i might b takin up CAT n ACCA next yr
which major in accounts!
So ppl !
I had already quit
so wish mi lucks yah ? : D
NEXT
Im no longer active in VE
Life ish no longer de same as 2 mths back
where i put much effort n time in fightin fer wad i wan in life
bein not active fer abt 3 weeks plus le
i reali miss de ppl dere
de life tt i used to lead in tt 2 mths
n most importantly i seems to lost de goals i used to hav
I always wanted to giv my mum a gud life
wantin to let my mum b proud of mi
wanna hav finiancial freedom
n to b a knowledgable person
All those seems so near when Im fightin togeta wif rhino
but now
all these seems so far
Its seems to mi tt each day and day
as im driftin frm VE (MLM)
my dreams n goals seems even further
hmm
but wadeva it is
it's reali not possible fer mi to fight as i used to
(due to circumstances)
BUT
wad i can sae is
to reali achieve goals in life
to earn ur 1st million
is never thru 8-5 traditional trade
but network marketing
NEXT
Im now currentli workin in ICBC
Industrial and Commerical Bank of China
It's a 1 month contract
contract starts on 16/10 and ends on 15/11
and when de contract finish
de bank wil see weathe wanna hire mi base on performance and their manpower needs at the end of the contract
BUT
de bank called my agent and asked weathe if im interested to convert to permanant ytd
Its like so fast la
Haven even 2 weeks !!
Guess wads my decision ?
Heex..
I oso dunoe yet
so i didn reject nor accept de offer
but I hav to giv an answer like tml le
So yah.. stil tinkin
wil update up my decision once i decided :)
NEXT
Enuff of updatin up my BIG decisions
haha
lets talk about todae bahx
todae was super sianz !!!
Was havin fever and headache
got no choice but called de bank to sae tt i reali cnt turn up
ended up slp until afternoon
den go dwn to visit de doctor
de doctor sae de same old thing
"gal, u hav low pressure"
ought to eat more meat and blahx blahx blahx
haha
lucky this time round didn giv mi iron pills to take : D
heys !!
Anione have backache n interested to go fer massage ?
HAHA !!
sounds like a aunty right ? lolz
but no choice
i got very very bad backache n stiff shoulder !!!
heex
okay ! I guess tt's all fer todae :)
Wil b back to blog again :D
Posted by [ ^^-S.M.I.L.E-^^ ] at 12:21 AM
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
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Posted by [ ^^-S.M.I.L.E-^^ ] at 7:58 PM
Sunday, September 16, 2007
The followings are some of de pic taken on 2/9/07
The day when Blue Rhino went to PulAu Ubin n cycle !
Its tiring ! Yet Fun !! : )



Posted by [ ^^-S.M.I.L.E-^^ ] at 5:03 AM
This is another post of pics
All de pics are taken on de 1/9/07
De day when all of us go to sentosa n celebrate Meiyu's b'dae wif de guys
We went sentosa, den sakae suhi, den ben n jerry, n lastli arcade n home ! : )
Enjoy myself alot ! : )



Posted by [ ^^-S.M.I.L.E-^^ ] at 2:37 AM
PICTURES
It seems to b ages tt I blog le
Followings are de pics taken on 31/08/07
Zhen Ling, Shui Jin, Meiyu n Mi went out fer dinner to celebrate Meiyu b'dae
I shouldn sae much
Let de picture do de talkin : )



Posted by [ ^^-S.M.I.L.E-^^ ] at 2:15 AM
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
BACK TO BLOG
FINALLY
I'm back to blog !! Wohoo : )
XxX [ haha ] XxX
Suddenli hav de urge to blog
N it seems like i got tons of stuff to blog abt
[= EXAMS =]
I got 3 papers to take
Todae took my Emaths & BusFund paper
Gone case le
Emaths, got a total of 29 marks dunoe how to do
Wil pass, but cant score
BusFund, tink wil juz pass onli bahx
Reali damn sianz
Regret not starting my revision earli
I guess my aim of GPA 3.5 and above can forgo le
SIANZ
hopefully thursdae paper wil b better : )
[( SCARY )]
Went hm at abt 1plus or 2plus a.m
den on my way hm, i went 7-11 to buy ice cream eat
N guess wad?
I met a very very scary uncle !!!
SCARY !!
I make payment at the counter
The uncle standin bside mi
Fred standin bhind mi
Den this old uncle tok to mi
UNCLE: I rmb u, i rmb u
MI: didn bother n make payment
UNCLE: I rmb u, I rmb u
MI: stil didn care
UNCLE: I rmb u, u came ytd right
MI: No
UNCLE: I rmb u, u got 3 eyes
MI: Didn repli him n turn to look at fred
UNCLE: I rmb u got 3 eyes
MI: Took my change n went out
UNCLE: turn ard n look at fred n mi
DAMN SCARY !!!
It's not solely bcuz he sae i got 3 eyes den i scare de
Is de whole feeling
The way he look at mi
The way he dress, n his appearance
DAMN SCARY!!
Den fred sae, lucky he dere wif mi ..
If not i sure scare liao siao de
haha
THANKS FRED : )
[( SWAY )]
Guess wad?
Todae ate my lunch at 1st engrg canteen
Had a plate of mix veg rice
Than happily eating wif my frens
Den suddenli sumtin drop on my food
n guess wad
Its BIRD SHIT !!
1st tym experience havin bird shit on my food
So sway la !!
But kinda funnie oso.. : D
[( BORINGLOSER )]
Boringloser, this paragragh is specially dedicated fer u de
Feelin honoured?
Even thru i dunoe hu u are,
but i juz wanna advise u to stop bein so childish
i dunoe wad gudges u hav wif yuwen n ling
Im juz nt interested to noe
N, stop bein a loser!
[( MY WANTS LIST)]
* Donuts frm donut fac
* Sakae sushi
* Vienna
* Kit Kat ice-cream
* Shoppin
* Cyclin
* Sun-tann
* Ice-skatin
* Score for exams ( at least a B )
* M.E asap
* Overseas trips wif peers
* HOliDAy !!
Posted by [ ^^-S.M.I.L.E-^^ ] at 2:32 AM
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
I MISS MY DAD
Recentli bein havin de same nightmare!
De nightmare ish very random.
It moves frm scene to scene.
I couldn rmb exactly wad happen.
BUT
I rmb tt my dad pass away in de dream.
N!! Nobody tells mi abt his death.
I onli knew it weeks after.
I was cryin in de dream.. Cryin very very badli..
Feelin very unfilial, helpless..
When i wake up, I felt relieve..
Cuz, it's jus a dream..
BUT !!
I dunoe why i have much thots abt de dream..
I wonder..
If one dae, my dad reali pass away, hu wil inform my sister & mi ?
Or if one dae I reali pass away, wil my dad noe ? Wil he cm to my funeral?
Haiz!
I realli miss my dad
I hav de urge to see him
I wanna noe hw ish he
I wanna noe hw's life fer him
Daddy, I reali reali miss u . Realli ..
But at de same time
I dun wan to see u
I hate u fer indulging into gambling
I hate u fer abandonin mummy, mei n mi
I hate u fer all de vulgarities u use on mum
I hate u fer hittin mi
I hate u fer chasin us out
I hate u fer not lettin mi hav a complete family
I hate u fer nt lettin mi hav my own roof
I hate u fer all de hurts u brought to mi
I hate u fer lettin mi go thru so much in my life
I hate u fer nt supportin mei n mi
that i have to work to support myself
I hate u fer havin another wife n child
I hate u
I reali do hate all de hurts u cause!
Haiz!!
I'm controverting my thots n words
I miss u, yet I dun wan to see u
I love u , yet I hate u
But one ting fer sure!
I wan to noe tings abt u..
Posted by [ ^^-S.M.I.L.E-^^ ] at 8:24 PM
Jessandra
Guess wad? Saint n QiHao drew tings that represents mi!
Done by: SAINT
Thanks boy! It's nice & sweet : )

Done by: QIHAO
Hey! Thanks ahx ! It don't look like mi at all! LOLZ !! : )

Posted by [ ^^-S.M.I.L.E-^^ ] at 12:12 AM
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
HAPPY B'DAE NURUL & SAMUEL
HAPPY B'DAE NURUL & SAMUEL!! : )
Went to skul earli todae to celebrate de 2 of their b'dae!
It's a surprise b'dae celebration !
De 2 of them were force to walk ard with de big b'dae balloon with their hands tied.
After which, they were bein throw to de pond!
Oh Gosh! De pond water reali stinks !! HaHa
But lucky, all of us provide them wif tings they nid.
Marc: Towel
Sara & mi: Clothes fer nurul
Cheryl n grp: Clothes fer Samuel
CaiMan & grp: Perfume
Haha! So thotful of us ! : )
B'cuz their hands were tied! They were force to go to toilet 2gether to wash their face!
1st, both went to de ladies, after tt gents.
Balloon were onli removed when they have to change!
Stupid security guard come to de gents and giv us a tight scoldin!
Haha! Clever us run to de ladies to avoid bein scold!
Went to lessons..
Than to Nurul's hse fer another round of celebration aft skul!
Followings are some of de pictures taken : )
PICS OF SAMUEL & NURUL
B4 bein subotage
All wet [Cuz was push to de pond]Dirty face [cakes on them]
In de Gents
Washin their face in de ladies
Labels: -SMILE-
Posted by [ ^^-S.M.I.L.E-^^ ] at 9:34 PM
To those frens that know mi very well, u all shld hav heard abt Uncle Tony before bahx. Hmm, I have smting that i reali wanna tell him. But I cnt pick up de courage. But it's bein botherin mi since last night. Hence, decided to write a "letter" to him. Even thru I noe he wnt b readin, but at least, sayin out makes mi feel better..
To: Uncle Tony
Hmm, when my sister break de news to mi abt wad happen to u, I'm extemeli shock. Commtin suicide ish reali an act of stupidity & irresponsibility!!
I know I am not u, I dun understand wad u are gg thru. But, i do understand one ting!
LIFE ISH PRECIOUS !
No matter how tough life might get, no matter how much u dislike ur work environment, no mater how u quarrell wif ur wife, life ish stil worth de living. Committin suicide ish nt a way of solvin problem, it's just simply runnin frm problem. It's also an act of coward-ness. Yes. Problems do brin much trouble, much headache. But, aren't problem de steppin stone fer us to bcm a stronger person ?. I blieve tt obstacles are dere to build n mould our character. N ..
Committin suicide ish reali an act of irresponsibility. To abandon ur son, ur wife, ur parents, siblings.. If u are reali gone, hu is gg to take care of ur child ?. u reali want ur child to live in a single parent fam?. Hu ish gg to take care of ur wife?. Hu ish gg to share her burden ?. Hu ish gg to take care of ur parents apart frm ur siblings?. N, by leavin like this, can't u hurtin ur beloved ones ?.
Hence, pls do treasure ur life. It's lucky tt u are fine n ok now. But .. Do tink abt it. Is life reali nt worth ur livin ?. Haiz..
PLSS !! Treasure everydae ! Life ish so short that u wil nv noe wad happen! Hence, TREASURE it n LIVE LIFE TO DE FULLEST!
From: Jessandra
Haiz. I reali dun understand y ppl wil commit suicide! Some ppl may tink tt I dun understand. But life hav nt bein smooth-sailin fer mi too. I do face many problems. I do break down mani times (esp when it comes to fam matters), but i always convince myself, all these are steppin stones fer mi to bcm a better person. All these problems are to mould my character. I noe it's hard. But .. Haiz. I oso dunoe wad to sae . But. Life ish definiteli worth de livin de. It's definiteli an act of foolishness to commit suicide.
Posted by [ ^^-S.M.I.L.E-^^ ] at 12:55 AM
Monday, July 23, 2007
HERE I AM TO UPDATE
I'm Back !! :)
Back to updatin my blog!
Bein quite lazy n tired to post de last few daes : )
Last Thursdae n Fridae:
Skul:
1. waste money on cab to skul again! .. Haiz
2. Engdraw quiz: 8.5/10 ( Happy )
Work:
1. FUN !! Apple n mi kip takin fotos! Cam whorin thru out ! haha
2. Slack !!
After work:
1. Went PS to hav LJS
2. Went to Esplanate!!! [ nice scenery ]
~ have Hokkien Mee dere. I ask fer extra chilli, den in de end, too hot til I cnt finish! hahaz. Lesson learnt: Don't always ask fer extra chilli! Some reali damn hot! hahaz
~ Went to walk ard at the river side wif fren. Den sit dwn n chit chat : ) Reali nice scenery! But got too mani couples kissin n huggin ! Spoilt de scenery man ! It's like so mani eyes dere, they stil can kiss n hug like nobody business de. OMG !!
Home
Last Sat:
1. Mit zl n sj in de mornin to study ! haha :) [ Hard-wrokin right?. ]
2. Went Ajisen fer lunch!. [Nice nice! Yummy]
3. Went to mit Zhi Tao at 9p.m like tt! Ate delifrance!
Hmm, actualli sae hao i treat him de, cuz always late n 4get abt mitings. But he insisted on payin. Than it's like i dun wan take back de money de. Den he sae if I dun take back, he wil juz leave it there as tips fer de waitress! Wah Lao! It's $50 lehx!! So, I took back lorx..
Aniwae, Thanks Zhi Tao fer de treat : )
Last Sun:
6.30a.m
Suppose to wake up at 6.30am to go to Nee Soon Camp(@ Khatib) for ndp rehearsal .
BUT !!!
Too tired le! Sumore rainin lehx. Ma fan plus nice to slp! : )
Than called Sara & Heri. Guess wad?. In de end, de whole grp of us no go! HaHa
Cool! Steady grp of peers : )
1p.m
Mit up wif Sara at bugis at 1p.m to go shop shop fer Nurul & Samuel present.
In de end, Sara n mi buy stuff fer ourselves la! haha
I brought a watch n a top ! [ yeahx!! ]
Than finally manage to buy smtin fer Nurul.
1. A 3/4 skirt!
[ I wanted to buy tt skirt oso de, but kind of expensive den bu she de ]
2. 2 tee shirts
3. Nice nice carrier !
Nurul, hope u like de presents : )
Sadli, didn manage to get smtin fer Samuel!
Special: We saw de biggest weddin cake!! It's abt 2 storey tall !!
Very Very Very nice ! (althot look abit fake)
Imagine de ingredients: 5,000 eggs !!!
HaHa! Will post de fotos up again ! : )
6p.m:
Meet up with Zhi Tao to plan smtings : )
9p.m:
Home Sweet Home
Todae:
1. Skul
~ Argh!!! I took cab again!! : ( Haiz!!
~ Late fer lesson ! Sry Nurul & Sara, cause u all to late also.
~ Engdraw: Wah!! Damn Hard !! Jess, Muz Jiayou !!!
2. Shop fer Samuel present
~ Nurul, Sara & mi skip lecturess to go shop fer Samuel present!
Finally get him a bracklet! HAahz.
Samuel, hope u like de present ! : )
3. Home
Here I am bloggin !! haha
4. Later
Mitin Zhi Tao later at 6.30 !! I muz leave home earli n nt b late !!
Finish !! : )
Posted by [ ^^-S.M.I.L.E-^^ ] at 4:23 PM
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
Slack @ work : )
Todae: 9-10 [ Maths tutorial ]
10-11 [ Effcom ]- test
11-12 [Maths lecture]
12- 1 [Apel]
2 - 8 [Work]
Suppose to reach skul todae at 9 for Maths Tutorial de! BUT !! Forget to put alarm clock, den wake up at 9.05a.m! Gosh .. Got a shock ! Than faster bathe n rush out liao. 10a.m got test, den got no choice but to on-call cab. On call cab so ex lorx !! Waste money !! Took 2 daes of cab to skul liao. Ytd n todae! Later muz make sure tt i got set alarm : ) 1st tym nv go maths tutorial. Sure got warnin letter fer tt de . Mum gg to start naggin again. Lolz. Skip Maths lecture to go fer lunch : )
Went to work after skul ! Guess wad ?! It's so slack !!! : P
Reach work place at 2, den sign in.
2-3.30 : Was talkin to friends thru out. The whole group of us onli on stand-by.
3.30-5 : Start goin to take our checklist, den go into our own meeting rooms.
Check that all the powerpoint slides are there, n make sure tt all de
speaker n chairman is there. Than open door for the other Doctors to go
in. Than sit at de back of the meetin room, listen to de talk oso. When
talk finish, open door to let all the people out.
5-5.45 : Chat with friends again
5.45-6 : Briefin. DISMISS
Lols. It's like so slack de. 1 dae $38 lehx. Paid to do nth! lolz. BUT tml jiu scary le. Cuz needa go Fort Cunnin! Hope I'll be safe :)
After that, went dinner at Pastamania! Guess wad ?! The cashier ish my friend, den giv mi discount! Haha. 2 person onli $14.40! So cheap !! Cheaper den student price! Went shop around at Bugis than take bus home! Haha. Once again! Thanks Henry fer sendin mi home ! : )
Posted by [ ^^-S.M.I.L.E-^^ ] at 10:01 PM
I LOVE MY FRENS : )
HeyHey!! I love my frens : ) Thanks ppl.
Shui Jin & Sara -> Thanks fer lightenin my bag by helpin mi to bring my books hm! Luv u gals : ) Thanks !!!
Those tt inititate to help - > Thanks fer initiating to bring mi from Fort Cannin to Mrt! Thanks manie manie! I reali appreciate alot alot ! Thanks! But didn agree, cuz doesn wan to disturb u all. If I reali reali lost my way, n if i reali reali scare, i wil col u all : ) THanks a million !! : )
Those tt send mi de map -> Thanks : )
I've said in my previous post that Marc ish a giant right ?. Hahaz. De following pics serve as proof ! : )
Left: Jess * Right: Marc
Top: Jess * Below: Marc
Labels: smile : )
Posted by [ ^^-S.M.I.L.E-^^ ] at 12:34 AM
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
HOW TO GO HOME FRM FORT CANNING ???? Haiz.
People. HOW TO GO HOME FROM FORT CANNIN ??
Haiz.. Haiz.. Haiz.. Haiz.. Haiz.. Haiz.. Haiz..
I took up a temp job frm tml to fri, 2-8 at suntec convectional hall for an exhibition. Todae went for the trainin. My job: room attendants (to make sure that all things in the hall are place properli, and to make sure that the powerpoint slides are correct for the talk. Than they say on one day, which ish 19th July i hav to help up for de President dinner. Guess wad i hav to do?. I need to fetch de guests to FORT CANNIN. A lady and mi will direct those guests up the coach. Than onli mi ALONE wil be going up the coach with the guests. Than collect de tickets frm them. When the coach reach FORT CANNIN, i will direct them to the refreshment. Than once they settled there, i can make my way home le. BUT . WTF lorx. How am i suppose to go home from there ALONE !! It's like they should put at least two person mahx, or mayb a guy. It's kinda dangerous for a gal to walk out lorx. Sumore at night about 8 plus. HAIZ. HAIZ. Reali sianz. Those tt noe mi shld noe tt i scare of darkness de. At night go home oso wil scare liao. Than stil wan mi to go home from FORT CANNIN at 8 plus ALONE. Wad de hell. I reali reali scare sia! Haiz. Sum more FORT CANNIN dere no mrt de, muz reali reali walk out. HAIZ !! HOW?!! De thot of it make mi wanna cry liao. Haiz. Haiz. Haiz. If I noe earlier, I wont agree to work de lorx. HAIZ. HOW ????
After trainin, went dinner with Henry and Bee Ling at MS. Thanks Henry fer sendin mi hm : )
Labels: Haiz. Haiz.
Posted by [ ^^-S.M.I.L.E-^^ ] at 10:07 PM
Monday, July 16, 2007
DAY 2
My second post! :)
Todae suppose to wake up at 9a.m de, cuz mitin nurul n sara at 11a.m fer lunch before skul! BUT, in de end wake up at 10.30a.m. Reach skul liao den go hav lunch with them at Short Circuit. SORRY! I'm always late ! (Muz kick tiz bad habit away)
Next is ENGDRAW lab. Lolz. Almost more den 3/4 of de class wear Black! Den de teacher comment abt it! FUNNIE :) Todae learn abt weird weird tings de. Dunoe wad hole n hole n hole de! Lolz
Suppose to have 2 lectures after my lab de. But, went to mit SJ instead. We went MS to look fer de hrt ear-rings, but cnt find de shop. : ( We was actualli plannin to open a push cart in skul de, but due to our time table, i tink can forgo le! Wait fer next sem bahx! :)
Went back to skul fer de NDP meeting! Guess wad?!! We nid to reach Khabit Mrt at 9a.m tiz sunday! So earli !! Frm my place to khabit ish sooo far !! Gosh!! Hope I can wake up on sundae! : P Nurul and Sara went back 1st. Den Marc, Joel, Samuel, Haziq n mi went back togeta. OMG !! Guess wad?. We all walk to Safra bus stop frm skul to take 21. N de bus 21 ish sooo long !! I can take so mani other bus home de, but promise to take 21 le. Haiz. More than 20 buses take i can take went pass, but I'm stil sitting dere with them waitin fer bus 21! Gosh. Tiz teach mi a lesson nt to promise ! LOLZ : ) Hahaz. While waitin fer bus, marc n mi comparin our feet and hand size ! He's a giant man ! We took de pic. I shall post it when he send mi :)
Aniwae, wanna thanks KELVIN fer helpin mi with my blog too! tHankIe : )
Labels: smile : )
Posted by [ ^^-S.M.I.L.E-^^ ] at 11:33 PM
My First Post : )
HeyHey! My first post! : ) Excited !!!!
I always tell my frens i dun want to hav a blog. Yet now, suddenli hav this urge to blog :)
Suddenli hav this urge cuz i was browsing thru my frenster comment, right frm de start (2004).
Than i reali reali miss de days when i was in secondary skul. Misses all my frens! Misses de days of GB trainin, plannin, campin, sports, skuling, frens!! Misses everytin in de past !
Hence, wanna blog, cuz few yrs dwn de road, I'll be readin wad happen to mi in de past months n yrs. Hw hav i change n stuff :)
Oh yah! Special thanks to SAINT :) He help mi thruout my blog! Frm blogskin, to tagboard, to uploadin music!
Thanks buddy!!
(: Shall be a dedicated blogger! :)
Labels: -S.M.I.L.E-
Posted by [ ^^-S.M.I.L.E-^^ ] at 2:05 AM